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Tuesday, February 1, 2011

my life be like, ooh ahh.

To give you a break from all those morose posts I've been writing lately, I'm writing a post when I'm happy. So, enjoy, because the mood's not gonna last long. :)

I love school.

Before you start clapping with joy, let me explain. I love school, as in honors chemistry, AP english, AP geography. I love school, as in the subjects, as in learning.

I already have my whole life mapped out. Of course, I went those stages in my life where I was thoroughly convinced that I was gonna be a famous actress, then a singer, then a painter, then a know all those dreams that we become rapidly fixated on and then discard just as quickly. But underneath these passing fads, I've always clung to Teacher as an occupation, and its becoming clearer and clearer that this is what I want to do.

If I do PSEO after sophomore year (which I am going to do), which would be when I was freshman age (15), then I would graduate college at 19, get my Masters in English at 21, and then phD at 23 or 24 and then I could start teaching college immediately. When I think of this, I know this is what God wants me to do. Sure, I'd be teaching kids just a year or so younger than me...but when have I let age hinder me from anything I want to do? My friends have always been older than me. I honestly don't have a good friend who is younger or even the same age as me. And now I'm in classes with sixteen to eighteen year olds. Who cares? Age doesn't matter to me anymore.

I love learning more than anything...I know that sounds incredibly nerdy, but its true. I read Biochemistry textbooks in my spare time. And now I'm beginning to love public school as well. Like sincerely. Yeah, obviously there's stuff that's hard for me. Like waking up at 5:00 AM every morning. Like leaving my house every day at 6:30, and seeing my little siblings growing up and not being there at home to experience it. But that just makes me want to spend every spare second I have with them, and I never felt that way before. My family was always a nuisiance to me, or at least something I took for granted...and now all I want to do when I get home is spend time with them. That is a gift straight from God and it's healing relationships faster than I ever thought possible.

I know this has nothing to do with anything, but I think it fits into the whole theme of happiness. I lost 10 pounds in the last month! I've always been insecure about my weight, always wishing I was skinnier. Then about a month ago, I went to the blood doctor for some tests, and they weighed me on their big official scale. 133 pounds. When I'm only 5'6". I freaked...133 lbs to me is overweight, or at least chubby. (I'm definitely not saying that if you weigh 133 that you are overweight.) So I got down to work. I cut about half of my daily intake of calories, and I started exercising obsessively. Sometimes I would only eat three eggs, carrots, and salad all day. For lunch, instead of bringing a whole bagel peanut butter sandwhich, energy bar, granola bar, apples, fruit snacks and raisans, I brought two hard boiled eggs and carrot. My friends tease me about those eggs, but I eat two every day for lunch, and thats it. I'm very proud of myself, I've kept up that diet almost all this month. For breakfast, I have some form of egg, usually a fried one with a little bit of salt. For dinner, I like salad, sometimes a soup or a small serving of pasta. I usually eat some sort of green with dinner, like broccoli. I am down to 123 pounds...and still dropping! I've started speed and strength with my friends after school and I'm starting track soon. I feel incredible. (:

Sorry this was a short post. Hopefully I'll get back into the swing of posting regularly. Not promising anything, but I'll try. I'm off to running. (:

Until later,


PS. Got asked to the winter formal! (:

16 replies:

Anna Gray said...

It was so nice to hear you happy again (I mean, not that you seemed mad or anything). Are you going to post regularly *gets down on knees and pleads*? :)

I reeeeeaallly have missed seeing you on blogger!

Rae B said...

I'm glad your happy! =)

Though, 5'6" and 133 pounds is healthy. That is most definitely not something to sneeze at!

Just make sure you're getting your required nutrients, girl! That is important!


Amber Noella said...

Beka, you inspire me! So glad to hear all this!!

Jazzie said...

cute blog!
congrats on the winter formal.
im sure it will be tons of fun!
the picture of you is gorgeous:).
xxo, Jazzie

Miss Elizabeth Rose said...

It's lovely to have you posting again, especially since you seem so happy! I'm so glad everything's finally falling into place for you. God is so good, isn't He?

Love you!

Elizabeth Rose

Kendra Logan said...

Bekah, I'm so happy for you! I've kept up with your adjusting journey and I'm thrilled to see you happy and inspired again :)

Congrats on the new life style choices! I can imagine how great that feels, having the extra energy as well as confidence

I think your dreams of becoming a teacher are really cool. I hope everything goes as you (and God!) plan.

Keep shining!


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Dakota said...

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Have a blessed day!

In Christ,

SavedthruLove said...

ten pounds in a month isn't too alarming but I would definitely make sure your body is getting enough nutrients and maybe see a nutritionist so you can work out a meal plan that keeps you at your weight but covers your bodies needs!! I know that restricting can lead to gaining more weight than you lost and also other issues..

133 at 5'6" is amazing btw but I understand where your coming from! Be healthy and I'm really excited your happy about being smaller. Just know that GOD created you marvelously and wonderfully :)...


Autumn said...

So glad you are loving your school and I am glad you feel like you know what God wants you to do with your life. Way to go!!!!!!
~ Autumn.

Kimberly said...

I'm so happy for you!!! Can't wait to hear about the winter formal!!!! :D

Anonymous said...

Girl, I am so happy to hear that you're happy right now!! Congrats on not only losing weight but also on having your life planned out already!! Would it be creepy of me to say I am proud of you?? Haha, who cares.. I am proud of you! Hope you continue to be this happy! ♥♥


anna :) said...

so glad you're happy at the moment! :)

and congrats on the winter formal!

Emily said...

Congrats on the winter formal! I can't wait to read more posts! :)

J.L. Campbell said...

I could learn a thing or two from you. I have some excess baggage in the waist area that I need to get rid of, but it's sloooooow going! Gonna continue working on that though.

Have a good week!

Ashley said...

Bekah, congradulations on losing 10 pounds! Although I do think weighing 133 pounds and being 5'6 is a healthy weight. I wish I could change my diet. I find it hard to pry myself from the sweets. But I always have veggies in my dinner. Always. And I try to have a salad lunch.
Have a great day! I will be looking forward to your next post. (:

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