the first time I've received flowers from a boy; or, the awkwardest moment of my life.

Imagine every single awkward moment you've ever had in your entire life, combined into one, times 1000000000000000000000000000000 to the 100000000000th degree, and you won't even be close to imagining last night.

I was asked to prom, with flowers and chocolate truffles, the expensive kind in the box with the ribbon and the gold seal. 

Awwwhh! you might be thinking. That's so sweet! 

Um yeah....no. 

He was terrified, I was mortified, it was awful.

I'll break it down for you.....

I'd heard some rumors that he was going to ask me that night, so I was wearing jeans, my hair up, in a t-shirt with make-up on and contacts in. Sounds casual? When I'm at my house, I'm in sweatshirts, sweatpants, with no makeup, glasses on, hair everywhere. So I was looking pretty good for being at home. 

The doorbell rings, my mom answers it, and yells for me. I come down and he's standing there, holding roses and chocolate. He looks like he's about to pee his pants. I act surprised, "Ohh heeeey ____!"

He doesn't even say hi, just blurts out, "Willyougotopromwithme?" and sticks out the roses and truffles with this frightened half-grimace on his face. 

 I take them, and I said thank you like a million times because I didn't know what else to say...and then I was like "hey could I let you know about prom? I'll think about it and talk to my parents and stuff, and I'll talk to you at school sometime." 

And then we have this split second of just standing there. And believe me, that was the longest freaking split second EVER.

I move toward the door to open it for him, he moves toward me, we do this awkward bobble thing, then say our farewells and he leaves and I start freaking out. 

Even though it was the awkwardest thing of my LIFE, I was happy to receive flowers from a boy for the first time ever..and the truffles are soooo good :)

hahah boys are silly.

A Post About Homosexuality

Homosexuality. 

It's a word banned in typical Christian conversation; and if this frowned-upon word somehow sneaks into a church sermon or Christian dialogue, it's expressed with distaste, disgust and repulsion. 

For example. I went to my grandparent's church this morning, and the sermon happened to be on marriage. The pastor discussed the biblical view on marriage and divorce, and homosexuality was also mentioned. I was shocked by what I heard the pastor say about homosexuality. This pastor, standing up there before hundreds of Christian individuals, completely bashed homosexuality and anyone that was homosexual. 

He said that God loathed anyone that was homosexual, that He could neither forgive nor love a homosexual person, and that homosexuality was an "abomination unforgivable by man and God." 

I sat there, and I was shocked and pretty angry as well. I don't know what your specific beliefs are, but I'm going to tell you mine. I believe that God did specify marriage between a man and a woman, but I also believe that God stressed not standing in judgement about other people. I believe that God loves EVERYONE, regardless of sexual orientation. I believe that God forgives EVERYONE, regardless of sexual orientation. 

I'm not here to discuss whether or not homosexuality is a sin. I'm here to discuss Christians' reaction to homosexuality, the world's reaction to homosexuality. 

I'm not gay, nor would I ever be gay. BUT I don't believe it is my place to sit here and be like "Oh my gosh, gay people are soooo evil and they are for sure going to hell and God hates them and they're horrible people!" I don't believe anyone has any right to have that attitude towards homosexuals.

To me, when Christians sit there, and preach that God loves everyone and we should love everyone, one minute, and then turn around and say "Homosexuals are going to burn in Hell", is extremely hypocritical and reminds me of the Pharisees so detested in Jesus's day. 

So basically, this is what we're doing. We are condemning people publicly because of who they love, when there's a good chance they can't help who they love. One homosexual individual put it this way, "It doesn't feel like biology, it feels like love."

How can Christians be like that? How can we do that? God loves homosexuals just the same as heterosexuals. I firmly believe that.

Did you know that gay and lesbian youth are three times more likely to try to commit suicide than straight youth? Did you know that at one nationwide camp of homosexual youth, 84% of the participants reported being verbally harrassed and bullied because of their sexual orientation?

We are killing kids. That's what that pastor was doing when he stood up there and bashed homosexuals. That's what kids are doing to other kids by using words such as "fag," "dyke," and "gay" to describe one another. 

As Christians, we need to take a stand. We need to treat homosexuals with the same love and forgiveness that we treat everyone else. They are a minority in the United States, they are a group that has been through incredible persecution, they are people that have been bullied, made fun of, rejected, hated, but still have the courage to be honest about their sexuality. 

STOP bashing homosexuals. STOP shuddering whenever you here the word. STOP treating them like sub-humans, like sinners. Because guess what?! We ALL have sinned. Heterosexuals are NO better than homosexuals. So get off your high horse, stop judging, and start living your faith. 

I'm not saying you have to go turn gay or anything. I'm just saying you have to be loving toward them. Act like Jesus toward them; God knows they need it. 

I'm going to leave you with this video...watch it, think about it, and think about your attitude toward homosexuals. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TdkNn3Ei-Lg